October was such a busy month that I forgot to write. I messed up a lot of things at work, but it’s nothing big so I dealt with the aftermath almost immediately. It’s just I get really exhausted running around trying to fix stuff and deal with people’s unreasonable requests. But unfortunately, those are my responsibilities so it can’t be evaded.
Work stuff aside, my weekends have been a bit more exciting since my coworkers would invite me out for a meal occasionally. It’s nice to be able to talk to someone who are closer to my own age. It’s not like I dislike talking to the older coworkers, but I feel like they’ll try to give me words of advice or look at me with a “ah, you’re still young” look when I talk about my problems and dilemmas. I just want someone who would listen silently.
I also spent my time wondering whether I should be going home this winter or not. I just went back this year January, but I feel like it’ll be hard for me to go home next year since there are lesser holidays (a lot of it magically fall on Saturdays and Sundays). The flight prices were twice the normal fare before the pandemic, which made me even more unsure. But my superior said, “It’s better that you go see (the people back home) while you still can,” and that one sentence helped me make my mind to go home this winter.
On the topic of books, I haven’t been able to finish the hardcovered novel I bought last month. It’s not because I’m not interested in it, but because I always end up having no time after reaching home. Despite that, I still managed to buy another book haha. It’s not a story, but a collection of quotes instead.
There are a total of 189 quotes in this book. Most of it are 1 page long, some are two or three. It’s difficult to explain what’s so good about a collection of quotes, but reading this book made me rethink about the events that I’ve experienced recently in work and in real life.
Because there are a lot of things you cannot do when you are young, the are also a lot of happiness from finally being able to do something.
Shigesato Itoi
The quote above could also be interpreted this way: “As an adult, you don’t gain much happiness from finally being able to do something, since adults should be able to do stuff.” It’s one of the quotes that I relate to since at work, it’s natural that you are able to do something. People stop praising you when you’re an adult, and that’s something that I feel somewhat sad about.
I’m halfway through the book, and while there are quotes that I could relate to, there are also some that I couldn’t relate to yet. Maybe it’s because of my age? Haha. But that made me wonder what my future self would think when rereading these quotes. Will they not resonate anymore? Will a different one resonate instead? It’s something that I secretly look forward to.
There are actually two more sequels to this book and I’m thinking of purchasing the second volume after I finish reading this one.
Current/Finished Anime: Spy Family S2 (on going), Mairimashita Iruma-kun S3 (on going), Romantic Killer (finished)
That is all for now!