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As good as nothing

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I had always thought that my dad was a jerk not so nice guy.

No offense, but that’s what my mom thought about him, too.

Today he made the four of us went to a seminar held by Adam Khoo’s company of I Am Gifted camp. To be honest, I wasn’t really looking forward to this. I’d thought I’d really get bored since seminars were all about talking useless things until your mouth dried up. My dad had always wanted for me to attend this seminar like years ago. I did manage not to attend, but this time he forcefully signed us up.

The public speaker had an unpleasant voice, much to my surprise. It’s too high pitched and it kind of irritated me throughout the whole session. The speaker switched to a male in the middle of it, though. We were then asked to memorize 30 random words in five minutes. I think it was pretty easy if you knew the trick to it, and I’ve already learned memorizing tricks several years ago. So yeah, the speaker gave me two notepads. Yay for new sketch papers.

In the end of the seminar, the speaker promoted the youth camp that’s gonna be held in the middle of December this year. It’ll last for four days in a pretty normal hotel. The camp costs 10,8 million rupiah. That’s $749.48 in US, I guess. It was so expensive that I really felt like I’d totally waste my money for nothing. My brother made a disapproving face, but my dad signed the both of us up anyway. My brother then immediately spewed curses when my dad wasn’t there. My mom didn’t even say a thing but sigh.

I know this camp is his investment for my future. So I guess he’s somewhat thoughtful and nice. But I just don’t like that bossy side of him. In several posts earlier I stated that I’ve decided to take programming as a major in the university next year. The sole reason for me to take that major was because dad made me to. Now he said he wanted me to study all the way for the sake of getting a scholarship to Japan and take business as a major. Well, seriously, I don’t know what’s in his mind.

We then went for dinner at Tony Roma’s. There I decided to talk to dad about my passion in design and that I wanted to transfer into Design and Communication majors. My mom supported me a little in persuading my dad but it  doesn’t work out. I got totally lectured by him till he decided it’s time for us to go home.

I don’t know why but I guess I’m so sick of him ruling over my life. I wish he’d just talk to me in a better way, but he decided not to do so. I feel that I’d never win against him so I guess I’ll just do what he wants right now.

I’m just too tired to fight back already.

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2 responses to “As good as nothing”

  1. Hanako Avatar
    Hanako

    I can understand what you are going through. Ultimately, it’s your decision to choose your career path. My dad had hoped that I would follow his footsteps, but I didn’t for several reasons, but mostly, I was not interested in joining the military. I had my own agenda, and now, my dreams aren’t going to come true, although, I am going to finish getting my two year degree at some point. The only reason because of that is that I had to drop out of school to work full time to be able to support myself. Me dropping out of college was not my husband’s fault at all. (He encourages me daily to go back to college).

    Keep in mind that you won’t be living with your dad for your entire life. You can, however, enroll for two majors. You can major in arts and in programming if you like. But remember this: the first path you take to getting a degree can either be successful the first time around (meaning sticking to your degree that you actually want) versus getting an degree in something you don’t like, and continue going to school for much longer to get the degree you do want. I’m sure you don’t want to stay in college/university for more than you have to since it costs time and money. (Also, make sure wherever you want to move to excepts your university degree or you could possibly face going to school all over again. Of course, when I say moving I mean moving out of the country).

    And just remember, you’re dad is only wanting the best for you. I’m sure he is not trying to be a jerk, but he wants you to succeed and make more money to support yourself, your family, and to help him and your mom when they’re old. Your father’s way of thinking is similar to my father-in-law’s way of thinking. (I’m a little thankful that my dad doesn’t push the issue very much with me since he knows I’m hard-headed and going to do what I’m going to do. I didn’t develop that personality until I had issues with my sister and her boyfriend that moved in with us).

    Anyways, I would try not to stress out about it. Go to this camp for you father’s sake. When you get to university, decide what you want to do with your life. It may upset him, but you’re practically an adult now. You are allowed to make your own decisions. Just make sure it’s the right decision (and yes, you have the right to make wrong ones as well), but the people who care about you–you’re dad, mom, even myself, we just want you to have a good and successful life. 🙂

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    1. Rin Avatar
      Rin

      Thank you for the advice! I’m really glad that you’re here to advice me about these kind of things since I don’t really have someone older than me as a friend. <3 I know that my dad’s just trying to do his best for me, it’s just that his actions are sometimes too sudden and hard to accept. Even though I’ve spent these seventeen years of my life with him (minus six, since I rarely saw him come home for six years), it’s just hard to be patient around him and to understand him. Sigh. I wish I could be more of an adult and stay calmer, but I guess I’m not ready for that right now? Lol.

      I’ll just try to obey what my dad wants right now. So I’ll start by taking a Japanese course and then take an IELTS or maybe TOEFL later on. I hope I get accepted!

      Again, thank you so much for the advice!

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