It took me some time to used to my working place here after they transferred me out of the Tokyo HQ three years ago to undergo training in the countryside where I am now. I was blessed with a great boss and kind colleagues. I even had someone I could call a friend here. Learning the ins and outs of my new job, how to communicate with business partners, how to earn their trust, how to convince other departments to help you, it was all grueling and there were a lot of times where I wish I could just quit and do something else. However, once those three years are coming to an end and the people in the HQ say that they want me back, I actually felt devastated.
I wanted to stay.
Getting transferred back to the HQ means that I’ll probably be assigned with a new job, new teammates, and a new boss. If I were to explain the relationship between me and the new boss (and his underlings) with Gen Z words, it’d be “we don’t vibe.”
While the prospect of learning a new skill is exciting, dealing with people who just don’t go along well with you is extremely stressful. I’d like to think that I’ve learn a thing or two about navigating the workplace relationships, but having to find a way and build it again from scratch is honestly daunting.
That being said, I don’t actually have a reason to stay, either.
I do feel indebted to my current boss who poured all his knowledge and time to educate me for the job. I really wouldn’t be here for three years if it weren’t for him, honestly. But that’s the only main reason why I want to stay: to pay him back. If that person is gone from this company, I’d probably be gone in a heartbeat as well. I could tell the HQ and force them to make me stay for a few more years, but who knows? Maybe my current boss will quit the company after a year. No one can tell.
I’m still unhappy with the situation of me having to move, but I guess I’ll go with the flow and embrace change for now.
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