This week has been very really stagnant and boring to me. I did try looking into more job applications and attending online job hunting sessions but I can’t seem to bring myself to write any applications.
Lately I’ve also been eating less, getting hungry less, and getting sleepy more often. I spent the week waking up at 12 PM only to eat brunch at 2 PM, spend the rest of the day reading manga, having dinner at 8-9PM and sleeping at 2AM. I would get extremely sleepy at 5-6PM so I would always drink coffee at 4PM trying to resist the temptation to fall asleep.
I did try to go out and shop for my groceries the other day. I also dropped by the local bookstore just to look at random stuff and ended up buying an interior design book just for my eyes to feast upon haha. Anyways, I think I have recently increased my spendings out of stress and pent up emotions. Haha. I justified my spendings by thinking its a treat to myself for trying hard (although I keep failing at things). I seriously think I need to change this habit, though. Lol.
I wish this horrible feeling would go away soon so I can go back and focus on the things I have to do.