Daily Monday

Living the week in a daze

This week has been very really stagnant and boring to me. I did try looking into more job applications and attending online job hunting sessions but I can’t seem to bring myself to write any applications.

Lately I’ve also been eating less, getting hungry less, and getting sleepy more often. I spent the week waking up at 12 PM only to eat brunch at 2 PM, spend the rest of the day reading manga, having dinner at 8-9PM and sleeping at 2AM. I would get extremely sleepy at 5-6PM so I would always drink coffee at 4PM trying to resist the temptation to fall asleep.

I did try to go out and shop for my groceries the other day. I also dropped by the local bookstore just to look at random stuff and ended up buying an interior design book just for my eyes to feast upon haha. Anyways, I think I have recently increased my spendings out of stress and pent up emotions. Haha. I justified my spendings by thinking its a treat to myself for trying hard (although I keep failing at things). I seriously think I need to change this habit, though. Lol.

I wish this horrible feeling would go away soon so I can go back and focus on the things I have to do.

Author

Rin

A 22 y.o child at heart and office worker. Spends most of her free time browsing YouTube and playing RPG games. Has an attention span of 3 seconds and sucks at organizing her thoughts.

2 comments

  1. I’m sorry that you’re feeling depressed again. Please push yourself to eat, even if it’s something little. Your body needs food to keep going, and probably one reason why you feel tired all the time. I’m glad to hear that you’re getting out of bed though, and out of your home. Even if it’s just grocery shopping, it still helps with your mental health. (I went today and ended up overspending myself. I bought stickers for myself, a game for my husband, and a bathing suit for my daughter. lol) Anyways, it doesn’t hurt to take a break from applications mentally, physically, and emotionally. Try to go a day without thinking about it. It just brings up anxiety. (Trust me, I know).

    1. I’m trying to stop thinking and making applications. It feels too good having nothing to worry about but at the same time it feels so wrong for me to experience that haha. Like there’s something out of place. Also, I’ve been trying to finish the novel slowly. I’m 175 pages in (almost 3/4?). But it’s been hard for me to continue reading because I can only read on my bed comfortably and get the temptation to sleep most of the time haha.

      I saw your blog post, those stickers are cute!

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