It’s been a week since I first started working at the new office, and I have to say that I don’t like it. At all.
Perhaps, I was too used to working from home instead of going to the office everyday. Hence, the idea of that seemed really ridiculous to me. I feel like it’s a waste of time and energy when you can do the same work from home.
My new work place is an hour away from my apartment, so I have to take the office bus that departs only once an hour. Since my work starts at 8:30, people usually arrive 30 minutes before the starting time which is 8:00. Back tracking that, it means that I need to take a 7 AM bus each morning and for that, I need to at least wake up an hour earlier to prepare myself at 6 AM. Being a night owl, this routine alone feels like a torture for me.
It would probably still survive better if work had ended earlier and I could go home earlier. But that is, of course, not the case. Work ends at 5 PM, but the earliest bus that leaves the company is 5:45 PM. There’s a policy here that you are obligated to take a 15 minutes break after 5 PM before you can resume your ‘overtime’. Hence, I’m wasting 15 minutes without getting paid and another 15 minutes just doing nothing on my desk, waiting for the time to come.
I’d usually reach the station at 6:45 PM and then take another 10 minutes walk back home. So I technically leave home at 6 AM and come back at 7 PM. I’d cook dinner, eat, shower, and then suddenly it’s already 9 PM. I literally have no time to do anything for myself. I would still like to have my me-time, so I sometimes participate in the gaming session for an hour before I go to bed at 10. But since it’s just hard for me to fall asleep at night, I end up going to bed at 11.
When I experienced this for the first day, I felt nothing but stress and fatigue that I just started crying for no reason in the bus on the way home. I guess my mind and body just couldn’t take the toll anymore.
I’m totally unsure if I can endure this for three years. People say I just need to get used to it, but I’m not sure if this kind of stuff is something you need to get used to. It feels extremely abnormal that you dedicate all your time for the company. Since you used up your entire energy during the weekdays, you’d think that you’ll have to rest up properly so you can function normally next week, right? In the end, it’s for the sake of work, and my mind just can’t accept that logic.
I wish they would just implement the WFH system. But it doesn’t seem like people do that here. There are a couple of members that do that, but I think you need a legit reason (ex. you just got vaccinated) to be working from home. But I don’t know. That’s just dumb to me.
Right now I just hate work with my entire soul.